Homesick

Every now and then I get hit over the head with the reminder that we're going to be away from home for a REALLY long time, and life back in Oregon is continuing without us, and this isn't just a vacation.  Today, it came in the form of a friend who loves us enough to drive our car down from Oregon so we can have wheels again!  But, it also served to remind me that this isn't an extended vacation, we won't be returning home soon, and life there is going on without us. When those thoughts start to hit, I start to feel pretty homesick and I remember how much I miss our friends, our routines, and my job.  Being a stay-at-home mommy was never something I seriously considered, and certainly not in a small apartment.  Back in our two bedroom townhouse, I said that we wouldn't have a second child until we had a larger place, with a big yard to play in.  Now, a small apartment, frequent bouts of cabin fever, a small child, and a husband who works 50 hour weeks. Not what I anticipated.

And I didn't anticipate raising a kid so far away from our friends or family.  Thank goodness for Skype, and Facebook, but it isn't the same.  Kaylee and I are not getting as much interaction with other people as either of us really needs.

I know we'll make friends.  I know the good parts of this adventure will far outweigh the negatives of homesickness and occasional loneliness.  I know I can make being a stay-at-home mommy in a small apartment work.  It's just that getting a dose of home reminded me of what we left behind.  And how much I miss what's there.

But, here, I have this...

So, I guess I've got everything I really need.

(oh, and Dylan too... he's kinda important)